I made a whole conversation in my head. The one I know I will never have.
For heaven’s sake it hurts the hell out of me, knowing that this is my fault, my naiveté. And honestly, I still don’t know what to do. I don’t have any action planned in my mind. Blunt and hopeless.
Now second chance sounds like unicorn.
I’m eighteen.
And thankfully I am so grateful of all I have now. I’m happy for being who I am now, more than happy. Although the future is still abstract and blurry. I’m having my life now :)
Thank God, for every path You have chosen for me. I learned a lot. I did regret some things, but now I can see clearer. Those regrets should’ve been replaced by gratitude.
Thank you Ayah, Bunda, Kakak Meli, Kakak Nadia for the wonderful eighteen years. We’ve been through so much together, you make me who I am now and I love you all with my life :)
And for everyone that has came to my life, either for a reason, a season or maybe a lifetime. Each one of you have filled parts of my life book and make a great story out of it.
Thank you. Thank you so much.
See you next year, 19th of January :)
“We are chameleons, and our partialities and prejudices change place with an easy and blesses facility, and we are soon wonted to the change and happy in it.”
-MNT
